You'll stand proud, face upheld
And I'll follow you, into Heaven or Hell
And I'll become, as a girl
In the desperate kingdom of love.
- 1. What is you middle name?
- 2. How old are you?
- 3. What is your birthday?
- 4. What is your zodiac sign?
- 5. What is your favorite color?
- 6. What's your lucky number?
- 7. Do you have any pets?
- 8. Where are you from?
- 9. How tall are you?
- 10. What shoe size are you?
- 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
- 12. What was your last dream about?
- 13. What talents do you have?
- 14. Are you psychic in any way?
- 15. Favorite song?
- 16. Favorite movie?
- 17. Who would be your ideal partner?
- 18. Do you want children?
- 19. Do you want a church wedding?
- 20. Are you religious?
- 21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
- 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
- 23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
- 24. Baths or showers?
- 25. What color socks are you wearing?
- 26. Have you ever been famous?
- 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
- 28. What type of music do you like?
- 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
- 30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
- 31. What position do you usually sleep in?
- 32. How big is your house?
- 33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
- 34. Have you ever fired a gun?
- 35. Have you ever tried archery?
- 36. Favorite clean word?
- 37. Favorite swear word?
- 38. What's the longest you've ever gone without sleep?
- 39. Do you have any scars?
- 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
- 41. Are you a good liar?
- 42. Are you a good judge of character?
- 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
- 44. Do you have a strong accent?
- 45. What is your favorite accent?
- 46. What is your personality type?
- 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
- 48. Can you curl your tongue?
- 49. Are you an innie or an outie?
- 50. Left or right handed?
- 51. Are you scared of spiders?
- 52. Favorite food?
- 53. Favorite foreign food?
- 54. Are you a clean or messy person?
- 55. Most used phrased?
- 56. Most used word?
- 57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
- 58. Do you have much of an ego?
- 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
- 60. Do you talk to yourself?
- 61. Do you sing to yourself?
- 62. Are you a good singer?
- 63. Biggest Fear?
- 64. Are you a gossip?
- 65. Best dramatic movie you've seen?
- 66. Do you like long or short hair?
- 67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
- 68. Favorite school subject?
- 69. Extrovert or Introvert?
- 70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
- 71. What makes you nervous?
- 72. Are you scared of the dark?
- 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
- 74. Are you ticklish?
- 75. Have you ever started a rumor?
- 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
- 77. Have you ever drank underage?
- 78. Have you ever done drugs?
- 79. Who was your first real crush?
- 80. How many piercings do you have?
- 81. Can you roll your Rs?"
- 82. How fast can you type?
- 83. How fast can you run?
- 84. What color is your hair?
- 85. What color is your eyes?
- 86. What are you allergic to?
- 87. Do you keep a journal?
- 88. What do your parents do?
- 89. Do you like your age?
- 90. What makes you angry?
- 91. Do you like your own name?
- 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?
- 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?
- 94. What are you strengths?
- 95. What are your weaknesses?
- 96. How did you get your name?
- 97. Were your ancestors royalty?
- 98. Do you have any scars?
- 99. Color of your bedspread?
- 100. Color of your room?
Lauren Bacall was a very big deal to me early on so it’s very sad to learn of her death. It’s that confident knowingness in her early Hawks roles that still gets to me.
#97: Possession (Dir. Andrej Zulawski)
I got the excellent Possession Blu-ray release from Mondo that came out recently, which was a substantial upgrade on my South Korean bootleg dvd(which I think was a different cut anyways)—so I took the time to rewatch what is definitely one of my favorite films. Possession is probably part of a trio of films (Trouble Every Day, Antichrist) that mean a lot to me and are hugely inspirational on how I approach my own art. Particularly in terms of what I’m into with Horror(with a healthy dollop of Jean Rollin).
Those three films also have my three favorite actors: Charlotte Gainsbourg, Isabelle Adjani, and Beatrice Dalle. The three muses or whatevs. I think these three women in particularly these films sort of hit some kind of wild note that I relate to, but feel stifled in personally expressing. All three in those performances are kind of this revealed darkness. I think I feel a certain kind of evil through which I lens the world, and somehow makes me a really kind person. I think this is also the depression that I deal with. Anyways, what I see with particularly Adjani’s performance in Possession is the struggle to explain this base corruption in words that anyone can understand, and finding language completely inadequate.
Watching Possession this time, I was actually reminded a lot of Maya Deren’s Divine Horsemen documentary film on Vodoun and some of the scenes in there where humans gyrated and danced and moved into an extra-human state to interact with ideas beyond the mind’s ability to normally perceive or receive.
Zulawski has crafted a similar sort of ritual as that with Possession(and his film Szamanka has this too) with the constantly moving camera, the actors who are constantly moving—whose every thought or word comes with some attendant twitch or gesture. The exhausting emotional release between Sam Neil and Isabelle Adjani, just coupled with the sheer athleticism of their perofrmances and that of the cameraman, all who basically start the movie running a race, that never really stops once for a breath. Zulawski has edited out breaths. This relentless emotional and physical expulsion by both actors causes both characters(and perhaps the actors) to enter trance states similar to the ones from Divine Horsemen. Obviously the subway scene with Adjani is the most written about example of this. But we see this too with Neil’s character and the rocking chair or the phonecall where he loses the ability to speak his thoughts.
He becomes through the film diabolic. This demon of course escapes into the doppelganger that Adjani grows through her loss of faith.
That’s another thing. Freaking dopplegangers. The intense constant doubling of this film is very much something I pursue in my own work and a concept I find endlessly interesting. Dopplegangers are by their nature an intricate dance of repression, negation, and obliteration.
It’s actually very difficult to talk about a film like Possession well. I’ve yet to read a singularly great piece on it, and this is most certainly not one. But the reason is because of how removed Zulawski has positioned the film from language. This is not a film that can’t be written about adequately, because if it could, it would be a novel as well. Thematically, and in it’s construction, Possesion is extra-lingual. It is simply a film, and you can’t write about it anymore than you can write about great music. At the end of the day, the best you can do is try and funnel the unexplainable through your own words and see what sticks.
It is with Szamanka the most relentless film I’ve ever seen. There is no wasted space, and every thing screams past. It’s exhalation not only elevates Adjani and Neill’s characters, but you as the audience as well. You become overwhelmed, and yourself become possessed which allows you to ebb right up against the higher ideas that the movie is attempting to show. Zulawski hides nothing. He wants desperately to show everything. He wants to look at everything, and almost concurrently.
This is also an amazing film just in terms of body language. Anna, Heinrich, and Mark are all tied by some kind of invisible field in their scenes together. Heinrich has that scene with Mark where he’s almost tied into him, and the scene in the kitchen with the meat grinder between Anna and Mark is the kind of things that makes all other depictions of domestic malice seem tame by comparison. The way mark keeps cutting off Anna’s space, and the way when one turns to talk to the other, the other turns away—you can see this violent push and pull in the space of that small kitchen—it throws you right on edge—and it’s tough to say that that scene climaxes with both parties mutilating each other—because every scene is a climax in Possession.